I have heard the cliche timing is everything all my life or "not your timing but God's timing." I have found this to be so true in my life. I wanted so much but the timing was not in line with God's, so I had to wait. Growing up I always wanted to be a pediatrician so I could help children. I admired mine because she was a beautiful, knowledgable, intelligent, and a compassionate woman that looked like me. In school I was driven to gain knowledge and make the best grades. I worried that my best was not good enough. Only putting pressure on myself. By the time I finished highschool I was unsure what I wanted to be when I graduated. My love for school was not the same as life had its punches along the way but I knew I needed higher education to obtain a job. I resulted to nursing school at the University of Mobile and by my second year of college I was loosing intereset. My mind was on making money. I stopped going to college and got a job working for a company and became their best producer in the company. I was making someone else wealthy and fulfilling their dream. I felt so incomplete. I decided to go to cosmetology school because I was always good with doing hair. It has always been a side hussle. I also enrolled back at the University of Mobile in the advanced education program to earn a dual degree in education. I was doing awesome and still could work with children to make a difference in society/my community. I was still wanting more money so I got a better paying job. Along the way I got involved in the NAACP and eventually became the Alabama NAACP Youth and College Dision Advisor. I was awarded Advisor of the Year and went the extra mile to guide units to be chartered. I was connecting to the right people at the right time and gaining experiences and skills. I did not complete my cosmetology mission but I completed my Education degree and with honor. After a few years of teaching and prayer for guidance, I went back to obtain my Master's in Education Media and Technology, completing it with honorw as well. All in due time. If it were up to me I would have finished 4 years after high school and been done but I was guided down a different path. I was so concerned about having my vision was thrown off and so today I have learned that sacrificing and not worring about getting money would have been worth staying focused on the goal at hand and not moving off that path. Do I regret my decision? No. Why? Because there are others who may have those same struggles and need someone to guide them as they make decisions concerning their future.
Today, I look forward to new goals. I am working on them but maybe not the way someone else would but it will happen at the right time. I have a timeline but ultimatley God's timing prevails and all will flow just right. I have learned to be patient because when we do things our way sometimes we make it hard on ourselves. We sometimes find ourselves rushing and making things work our way and we spoil the plans that God has for us. Not that we will not receive his blessing but we do delay them. Sometimes our hearts are not in the right place when we do things. We look back and we may not have been mature enough for that desire but it was what we wanted in our time instead of God's perfect timing. It is all about waiting on God. Prematurely doing things can have negative results. That does not mean doing nothing but being in preparation and allowing him to mature us in order to receive the blessings he has in store.
Know that whatever God has for you may not be happening on your watch but it will come at the most precious time and you will be able to humbly recieve what it is rather than you manipulating the situation to happen on your time schedule.
Embrace each moment of preparation as you become closer to your dreams.
